“Faith is not believing that God can; It is knowing that He will”
That is on a wooden frame my Mom gave me my first year of Bible College. It sits in my kitchen on my microwave. You know the place where everyone puts wooden plaques. If I were to have a plaque that read my actual feelings…one would say this “AAAAHHHHHHHHHH”. On the bottom, in small print, it would say “I know, I know…moving on”. I would laugh every time I looked at it.
Confession – my faith has its moments of flat out weakness. I do believe that God can. I often struggle anxiously that He will (I know the bible tells me not to…). It’s a really good that His power is made perfect in my weakness (and that the bible says so)…because I am…weak that is. We go from moments of great boldness and faith, to moments of anxiety and fear. The weak moments feel ridiculous but they are still very real. Here is the kicker, those bold faith-filled moments are real…and there is life to back them up.
The Old Testament is full of “Remember what the Lord your God has done…now move on”. That is my succinct version. There is a bunch of “fear not” thrown around in there…God knew they needed it then. He knows I need it now…and still loves me!
I look back at my life and there is no denying God’s hand. There have been plenty of unknowns and ill-equipped moments where God has come through and moved in ways I could have never imagined. He has led us places we never thought we would go, provided, allowed us to experience some painfully uncomfortable moments, stretched us beyond our limits…and never for a moment were we EVER left lacking. In fact, we found a great amount of life there. He is FAITHFUL!
Sometimes I have to remind myself of that. Not for the sake of dwelling on the past…but for the sake of what is ahead of me.
So for those moments where the pretty plaque convicts me…and the one yelling is my honest feeling…I will remember this.
My God is faithful! He can handle my moments…even when “AAAAAHHHH” is all I got.